tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-315765812024-02-20T15:55:19.601+08:00ToyoyoinkRants and musings are about life, work, and love life. Dreaming and wide awake with the reality that's pushing real hard. Thoughts in finding one's self and having fun at the same time.Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-66896601037426082902008-01-26T14:45:00.000+08:002008-01-26T15:28:29.385+08:00My 2008 Resolution<div align="justify">As they say, "A new life for a new year!". Yep, that's what I'm gonna do. Change my bad and unhealthy ways of living from the previous years. So here's a little list that I have made last January 1, 2008...<br /><ol><li>Leave my credit card at home.<br><br />I did this for two weeks. Realizing that my life was just at home and at work so I thought I'd just bring it along... hehe! But this time, I see to it that I don't have to spend much this time... and I stopped buying stuff toys too! My toy cabinet was so full that I don't want to buy anymore. I think... hehe!<br><br /></li><li>Bring a small amount of cash in my wallet.<br><br />Hmm?... I did this for the first two weeks still! And it doesn't make any difference because I keep a space for my emergency money and a space for my money to be spent. Good thing I end up saving some by the time I get my next pay. But still, the credit card expenses are always there...still no use! Haha! (Geez... what's the point of including this on my list?!)<br><br /></li><li>Go out at night once a month.<br><br />I did went out once this month. And once because I had to for our team bonding. So I believe I did well on my first month for this!<br><br /></li><li>Not to drink alcoholic beverages.<br><br />Oh yeah... believe it or not, I did this! I have been tempted many times but nah... I would stand up for this resolution. It's for my own good anyway.<br><br /></li><li>Not to drink sodas.<br><br />Hmmm?... I drank coke today. Oh well, I can excuse myself for this sometimes... hehe!<br><br /></li><li>Eat a little amount of chocolates.<br><br />Just as long I won't go to the grocery store or Duty Free, I can't eat chocolates... hehe! Anyhow, I'll try to eat a little or no chocolates at all. It's in our family of being diabetic. I pray not to be one at this early age...<br><br /></li><li>No to junk food<br><br />Junk food... hehe! No comment! ;p</li></ol><br />Here's my A MUST To Do list:<br /><ol><li>Sleep on or before 12 midnight.<br><br />How I wish I could have a regular sleeping schedule. When I get too tired from work, I can go to sleep from 6PM to 9PM and then I sleep again at 2-3AM to 5:30AM. I don't sleep on Friday and Saturday nights. On Saturday and Sundays, I usually sleep at 5-6AM till before noon time. Sometimes, if I can hold my sleepy eyes, I can sleep from 10-11PM then wake up at 5:30AM.<br><br /></li><li>Exercise at least three times a week.<br><br />I've gained some weight lately. I haven't done some exercise since I bought our new treadmill. Now we bought a new equipment and I wanted to spend some time on it. I pray to get and stay fit again like my body during my graduating college days.<br><br /></li><li>Forget the people who have hurt me. <br><br />Past is past. So I should forgive and forget. Time to move on and take no grudges!<br><br /></li><li>Be more optimistic.<br><br />Attract the positive energy! A lot of my officemates have shared to me about the Law of Attraction. And... they are right about it! I believe in the power of being positive and it makes be better, feel better!<br><br /></li><li>Do extra work to earn more.<br><br />Yes! I want to earn more and save more money for my future. Life is precious and short. I want to make the most and best out of it. But... in a clean, healthy and good way!</li></ol></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-11991379591606391362007-12-20T21:38:00.000+08:002007-12-20T22:04:41.395+08:00Life's MysteryJust as I was doing well with life<br />And I was beginning to hide the feelings that I had for you deep inside<br />You came to put a hole in my heart again<br /><br />You said it hurts and things are different now<br />When you are just far from a distant and I never did change<br />The more I cannot seem to understand what makes it so unalike somehow<br /><br />I used to believe in the saying that goes...<br />“When you really love somebody<br />Nothing can stop you from loving that person<br /><br />No mountains or seas can change<br />Those feelings you have for that being.”<br />But I guess I was wrong…<br /><br />Life is a mystery that we can never tell<br />On how it changes so easily with a snap of a finger<br />And why one becomes bitter after falling into something that went deeper<br /><br />For me not be miserable of what had happened<br />I look at the brighter side<br />Hoping and praying that one day somebody better will come my way<br /><br />But still I hope and pray that one day<br />You would come home to me<br />And forever you will stay...Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-68505810588998576132007-12-12T13:58:00.000+08:002007-12-12T14:06:24.739+08:00My Poem Dedicated to DaisyKnowing that you'll be leaving makes me sad<br />Knowing you'll be more happy makes me glad<br /><br />Eventhough I've only known you for a few months<br />It feels like I've known you far more than enough<br />Though I don't know you pretty well<br />Never did I doubt as far as I can tell<br /><br />You are fun to be with<br />You are a person full of glee<br />Not a dull moment is spent<br />Once a person is connecting to thee<br /><br />Talking to you was never boring<br />Teaching you was never hard<br />I just hope that with your short stay<br />You learned something that you will always keep in your heart.<br /><br />Thanks for being a good team player.<br />Thanks for the memories.<br />And thanks for being a good friend.<br /><br />Always stay happy and take care.<br />May you always have good health.<br />And I wish you the best in all your future endeavors.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-64970168126010142532007-11-12T01:23:00.000+08:002007-11-12T01:28:37.928+08:00Is It Me or Is It Them?Is it my being sweet or is it just too much?<br />Is it my being open-minded that I give them such freedom?<br />Is it my trust that I never had a doubt in anything that they do?<br />Is it my personality that they find it so annoying too?<br /><br />Is it my chinky eyes that couldn’t see them through?<br />Is it my culture that they can say we can’t be together too soon?<br />Is it how I was brought up that they could not match up to?<br />Is it my close family ties that they envy too?<br /><br />Is it my college degree that we don’t have the same interest?<br />Is it my job position that makes them inferior?<br />Is it my salary that even they work hard they still can’t reach it?<br />Is it what I know that makes them think they’re so little?<br /><br />Is it my friends that they don’t like?<br />Is it how I spend some time with my friends that they dislike?<br />Is it when they go with me to hang out with the friends I care the most?<br />Is it how I treat my friends and them that they make some fuzz out of the most?<br /><br />So many things that are coming out of my head<br />So many reason that I could have said<br />So many alibis that may have been alleged<br />So many times that I could have held...<br /><br />I know I’m not perfect and I do commit mistakes.<br />I know I don’t have the body which every man wants to take.<br />I know I know little that I cannot equate myself with a man.<br />I know I’m just a girl, waiting for a man to love me for who I truly am...Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-60656666142003690172007-10-28T18:39:00.000+08:002007-10-28T18:40:39.403+08:00Destiny and Relationships<div align="justify">For me, Destiny is when everything falls right into place and it’s just up to you to make it happen. <br /><br />Destiny won’t be the one to lead you to the man who is perfect for you. No matter how perfect a man is for you and you don’t love them, nothing would still happen to the both of you.<br /><br />You will never expect love at its best, but who ever you choose will always prevail. There's no such thing as destiny. There are only different choices... Some choices are easy, some are hard. These are really the important ones that define us as people. Maybe it’s not the happiest of endings but it's the right one.<br /><br />I totally agree with this quote that says:<br />"No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE. <br />No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK. <br />And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE."<br /><br />And I got a word from the wise that:<br />"A relationship comes from two people loving, respecting and enjoying each other’s company. That’s it. Sex is a huge bonus and for most of us it’s a part of a good relationship, but it is not the basis of one."</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-4416480490570102942007-10-28T18:36:00.001+08:002007-10-28T18:42:29.923+08:00My Ideal Guy<div align="justify">August 10, 2005 – This was the day I wrote a very important list. A list that will be my guide in having a boyfriend. A list that may serve as my eye opener to the reality that I'll be facing soon in my life... This may seem funny or overly acting but these were my thoughts on this day...<br /><br /><b>In a guy, physically he must be</b>:<br /><ol><li>taller than me<br /></li><li>fair or white complexion<br /></li><li>thin lips<br /></li><li>smiling eyes<br /></li><li>smiling face<br /></li><li>straight eyebrows<br /></li><li>not fat and not thin<br /></li><li>little muscles<br /></li><li>not with kinky hair<br /></li><li>neat looking<br /></li><li>presentable<br /></li><li>nice nose<br /></li><li>no bad body odor</li></ol><br /><b>His characteristics must be</b>:<br /><ol><li>honest<br /></li><li>respectful<br /></li><li>open<br /></li><li>trustworthy<br /></li><li>affectionate<br /></li><li>sweet<br /></li><li>romantic<br /></li><li>demonstrative<br /></li><li>loving<br /></li><li>thoughtful<br /></li><li>responsible<br /></li><li>open-minded<br /></li><li>has initiative<br /></li><li>optimistic<br /></li><li>loyal in loving – one woman man<br /></li><li>understanding<br /></li><li>good sense of humor<br /></li><li>God fearing<br /></li><li>patient<br /></li><li>kind<br /></li><li>calm<br /></li><li>humble<br /></li><li>committed<br /></li><li>has time for me<br /></li><li>hard working<br /></li><li>not boring to be with<br /></li><li>accepts me for who I am<br /></li><li>accepts my family<br /></li><li>accepts my relatives<br /></li><li>accepts my friends<br /></li><li>good family background<br /></li><li>introduces me to his family<br /></li><li>introduces me to his friends <br /></li><li>a gentleman<br /></li><li>remembers occasions<br /></li><li>a good comforter<br /></li><li>know when to talk and when to be quiet<br /></li><li>not fond of cursing<br /></li><li>encourages me<br /></li><li>gives support<br /></li><li>appreciates my efforts<br /></li><li>stands up for me<br /></li><li>not fond of making fun of others<br /></li><li>loves dogs<br /></li><li>loves kids<br /></li><li>goes out with my family<br /></li><li>goes out with my friends<br /></li><li>brings me along with his friends<br /></li><li>loves music<br /></li><li>loves to watch movies<br /></li><li>makes me feel special<br /></li><li>not self-centered<br /></li><li>knows how to let down his pride<br /></li><li>holds my hand when we walk together<br /></li><li>goes to church with me<br /></li><li>vocal with his feelings<br /></li><li>loves to hug me<br /></li><li>thinks about our future<br /></li><li>plans about our future<br /></li><li>includes me in his decisions<br /></li><li>willing to wait for me patiently</li></ol><br /><b>Other characteristics</b>:<br /><ol><li>older than me<br /></li><li>not vain with his looks<br /></li><li>no children with other women<br /></li><li>has a stable job<br /></li><li>knows how to spend money wisely<br /></li><li>knows when to be practical<br /></li><li>does not smoke<br /></li><li>drinks occasionally<br /></li><li>does not take prohibited drugs</li></ol><br />Hmm?... these are the things that I was looking for in a guy...<br /><br />I found this kind of guy but he was not who I think who he was...<br /><br />I fell in love with wrong men...<br /><br />I fell in love with men who does not pass to the categories that I'm looking for...<br /><br />For short, I fell in love unconsciously.<br /><br />Love is not blind... it just doesn't mind.<br /><br />Now that I'm single again, I hope and pray that I will meet the kind of man who passes my list. <br /><br />He may not necessarily be perfect, but if he is close to perfect, then he must be it! <br /><br />If not, then I'll wait for the man who truly deserves me.<br /><br />But my question is... Does this kind of man exist? Only God can tell... :)</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-64125965673788615182007-10-19T23:10:00.000+08:002007-10-19T23:34:46.359+08:00Ha. Ha. Very FunnyI've read the break-up letter of my ex again<br />And it made me laugh at last... hehe!<br /><br />Some line says...<br />"We have to move on.<br />I'm sorry for all my shortcomings...<br />I'm not suited for you.<br />I guess this is the time to bid goodbye...<br />You are such a wonderful and nice person<br />I've ever met.<br />I know there is a lot in store for you...<br />Thank you for all the happiness <br />You brought into my life...<br />That I will always keep and cherish.<br />May God bless us all..."<br /><br />Nice one!<br /><br />May I ask...<br />When is one suited for someone else?<br />Is there such thing to say "this is" the time to bid goodbye?<br />If I were wonderful and nice, how come they left me?<br />What's in store for me that I'm broken hearted?<br />Am I just someone else's toy to give happiness?<br />Will I keep the hurt I have inside?<br />That all the cherished moments breaks my heart so bad?<br /><br />Hmmm?...<br /><br />I'll be okay.. I can do this!<br />If they are happy right now, why can't I be?!<br />Yeah... Things happen for a reason on a season??<br />Ha ha! Yeah right... :pUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-39498735203026334172007-10-08T22:59:00.000+08:002007-10-08T23:00:13.527+08:00A Poem to My BelovedAnyway... I'd like to thank you<br />For all the sweet memories that you have given me.<br />Wherever I go, what ever I do,<br />I am happy for my thoughts are with you.<br /><br />To the places we've been,<br />To the memories that I can never forget<br />I'll always treasure<br />And keep it in my heart forever.<br /><br />Since you're in a new land and you've met a lot of different people<br />I'm happy for you...<br />Though I know you've moved on your way,<br />And for that, I cannot make you stay.<br /><br />Though I love you so deeply,<br />In my heart you still stay<br />And I know in time<br />These feelings will fade away...<br /><br />So I wish you all the best<br />And I hope you'll never forget<br />That the time I've spent with you were cherished<br />And my feelings were true.<br /><br />And when the time comes<br />That you go back to your native land<br />I hope you'll never forget<br />To visit an old friend...<br /><br />Take care...<br />I wish you all the best.<br />May God bless us all..<br />And I'll be missing you...Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-62155618051300742792007-09-28T21:06:00.000+08:002007-09-28T21:33:50.068+08:00I'm Single Again - Oh dear life...I'm 26, single and successful in my career.<br />I'm 26, available and my love life doesn't seem to cheer.<br />I'm 26, happy and holding my life so dear.<br /><br />First was Bennie, a Certified Public Accountant,<br />now married.<br />Second was John, a basketball varsity player that time,<br />now I don't know where he is.<br />Third was Paul, an old man trapped in a young man's body,<br />now I see him often.<br />Fourth was King, a university teacher but never was my teacher,<br />now also married.<br />Fifth was Matthew John, a former call-center agent,<br />now living in Illinois and he never left his heart in Cebu.<br /><br />Hmmm?... What can I say?... Hmmm?...<br /><br />Oh well! Life goes on!<br />I'm just glad I've met and loved them all.<br />No regrets and can't turn back the time.<br />But if I were given the chance to pick out one of the five,<br />I'd pick __________.<br /><br />Since true love can't be found in any of them,<br />then I'll go on my way as they did as well...<br />Being in the state of love is such a wonderful thing.<br />But when one falls out of love,<br />it's the most painful thing one can bring.<br /><br />But hey! It's not yet the end of the world...<br />And as they say, God has something better in store for you.<br />And I believe He has some plans for me too!<br />So I'll just wait for that day to come.<br />And pray that one day, true love can be found...<br /><br /><center><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e126/miacarmel/ym/giggle.gif"></center>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-1157982451092776502006-09-11T21:43:00.000+08:002006-09-11T21:56:54.296+08:00Prayer for GenerosityLord Jesus, teach me to be generous;<br />Teach me to serve you as you deserve,<br />To give and not to count the cost,<br />To fight and not to heed the wounds,<br />To toil and not to seek for rest,<br />To labor and not to seek reward,<br />Except that of knowing that I do your will.<br /><br />Amen. <br /><center><br /><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e126/miacarmel/ym/praying.gif"/><br /></center><br />This is a prayer by Saint Ignatius of Loyola. It reminds me of Marvin, a good and humble team leader in our company. He'll be leaving us soon and it will be so sad to see him go. But we know its for his own good and success, so we'll support him all the way! <br /><br /><center><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e126/miacarmel/ym/smile.gif"></center>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-1156428755145228302006-08-24T20:05:00.000+08:002006-09-16T09:31:10.970+08:00Love Love Love...Love.. love... love.... (*giggle)<br /><br />I just wanna say the word love… Is it a crime to say the word love?... I missed saying “I Love You” to the one that I love... It’s been a while. (*sigh) I miss those moments… those sweet and precious moments. I would give up forever just to bring back those moments. But can I? Can I really do that? Give up forever just to be happy even though the person I loved already stopped loving me for quite sometime and I never knew?.. (*sigh) Life really sucks! Nah, it doesn’t suck. It’s just unfair. Yeah! Life isn't fair. It never will and it never was. But I believe some things happen for a reason at the wrong season. (*giggle) Pardon me for my silly thoughts. I just want to say it that way… <br /><br />I just wanna let a person know who I really am and show him the real me… Is it a crime to reveal yourself to the one you truly love and trust?... I missed my old self... The person that I used to be and whom I consider to be one of the sweetest persons in this planet. But those thoughts and beliefs are gone now… No comment. And don’t ask.<br /><br />I just wanna be frigid… Is it a crime to be frigid after all the things that I have gone through?... I really don’t wanna blame myself for what has happened in the past. I wanna move on but the love that I feel is still in me. The love that I can’t let go and is hard to let go. The love that I cannot set free. The love that wasn’t supposed to be. <br /><br />I just wanna be happy and be free from thee. But how can I be happy if you won’t let me be. Seeing you happy gives me glee. But in my heart I feel it made me bleed. I know you let go of me. You let go of the past and left me on my heels. Left me pretending that life has to go on without thee. But deep in me, I know, you see me crying but my eyes just never show.<br /><br /><center><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e126/miacarmel/ym/broken_hearted.gif"></center>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-1154436878597939092006-08-01T20:50:00.000+08:002006-09-16T09:24:40.673+08:00Angel Unknownwhaaaaaaaa...! i just saw an angel! fell in love with an angel! don't know the name of that angel! huhuhu.. i've never seen such face that is flowing with grace. his smile, his face, the touch i long to embrace. seems to pull me down with his trace. those eyes, his nose, the body that i long to hold..<br /><br />hahahahaha! na unsa nani! na over og compose dah! :p<br /><br />pero in fairness, that angel inspires me! grabe! don't know his name lang.. faet.. hehe!<br /><br /><center><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e126/miacarmel/ym/giggle.gif"></center>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-1154352770825576182006-07-31T20:31:00.000+08:002006-07-31T21:36:20.430+08:00Cutest BABY Ever<center><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e126/miacarmel/cute-baby1.jpg"></center><br /><br />isn't this baby the cutest ever?? how i wish i'm gonna have a baby like this in a few years from now! a trophe whom i can hug, hold and call it mine.. hahaha! yeah right.. i should start dreaming tonight!<br /><br /><center><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e126/miacarmel/ym/bleh.gif"></center>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-1154264280201850152006-07-30T15:06:00.000+08:002006-08-14T10:00:28.043+08:00keep that breathless charm..I saw somebody that has a breathless charm.. But as usual, it’s for my eyes only.. I can have that somebody but from a far.. hehe! Silly of me to think of it that way huh. But that’s my sad reality.. It’s just not meant to for me. But when can I ever meet my knight and shining armor? That’s my million dollar question! <br /><br />I’m really a helpless romantic! I don't believe in destiny. Destiny is nothing but a fantasy. Reality is one hell of a ride! A ride that keeps on spinning and spinning on my mind.<br /><br />Ahh.. Love.. What is love? I dunno! Don’t ask me! hehe! I once had it. But now, I can’t find it in me. It’s nowhere to be found in my sweet memories. My dreams have been shattered long before I begin to mutter. Dreams that motivate me to keep on living, giving me hope to face the sanities of my being. Now I’m bitter. Bitter as I can be. Can’t blame myself for what has happened to my past and me. I know time will heal all wounds.. But when will that wound ever heal?.. (*sigh..) I’m tired of being sorry for myself. I did my best and I believe my best wasn’t good enough. Enough of this crap! Does no good to me! Now that I’ve found a breathless charm, nothing can stop me! <br /><br /><center><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e126/miacarmel/ym/inlove.gif"></center>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-1153753618321522792006-07-24T23:03:00.000+08:002006-07-24T23:12:35.746+08:00Damn! I Feel Lonely Again.There are really times in my life when I feel down and gay... (dili magbinayot akong gi mean ha.. ;p) hehehe!<br /><br /><center><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e126/miacarmel/funnyface.gif" border="0"></center>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31576581.post-1153744446852473682006-07-24T18:34:00.000+08:002006-07-24T23:10:43.536+08:00Toyoyoinkthis is the expression that I say when I wanna hit a person at the back of the neck for doing a stupid thing! hehehe! just kidding.. but come to think of it, jokes are half meant! hehe! <br /><br /><center><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e126/miacarmel/butiki.gif" border="0"></center>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1